Friday, May 25, 2012

The Waiting is Over (or is it?)

Finally on CD 51 she appears! I spotted a little last night and then this morning I thought I was in full flow force so I called the IVF nurse. I got my schedule and should start my BC Sunday. But now I go to the bathroom to check on things and she's gone again. I was on Prometrium to make me start so I'm wondering if this was a false alarm and the real one will be here in another week. I just finished the last 2 pills last night and they said it usually won't show up until 7-10 days after the last pill. Anybody have any words of wisdom about this situation?I really don't want to leave the nurse another message and say,"Just kidding!"

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

She always comes when you don't want her...she never comes when you do want her

By her I mean AF. I have had very regular cycles since going off BC. Usually every 35 days. Now that I need her to come so that I can plan the biopsy and start my next IVF, she is MIA. Can I use any more acronyms in this post????:) Yes I can-It's CD 42. I took a test even though I knew I wasn't and of course It was negative. Is there anything they can give me to make me start? I've never had this problem and I figured there were plenty of girls out there who have. I am very frustrated because I have to get this thing going in the next 2 weeks or it's going to run into the start of school. Believe me, no one wants to sub in Pre-K in August or September. Heck, I don't even want to go at that time of the year;)Any advice is greatly appreciated!

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Another Mother's Day Gone By

Well I'm like most of you. Hoping this would be my first Mother's Day either with a baby or at least a growing one inside me. But yet again, here I sit-motherless. I am SUPER thankful to still have my own mother. I know a lot of people don't have their mothers and I have one of the best ones around. I know there will be a day when she's gone and I will regret these days of feeling sorry for myself and not embracing this holiday. It's hard to do though. We went to church. Normally we sit this one out (along with Father's Day) but we had nursery duty. You can see the service on the tv in the classrooms and of course today was Baby Dedication. 13 of them to be exact. The lady helping us was like, "Ooooo! Turn this up. I want to watch this!" So I excused myself to the bathroom. Later we took Brad's mom to Cracker Barrel where I saw children bring their moms flowers and where the waitress asked if we needed a kid's menu. We sat down at the table where I cried and had Brad orde my drink for me. Soooooo glad this day is over. I REALLY hope next year is a real Mother's Day but after 5 years, I seriously doubt it.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Endometrial Biopsy

This post is actually just a question for those of you out there who have done an endometrial biopsy to improve implantation failure. Do you do the biopsy the same month as your bc pills or do you have to wait until the following cycle to start bc? AF is making me mad because she loves to stay away when I need her to come and I'm so afraid my transfer will fall right in the middle of the beginning of school. August is not a good month to be taking off work when you're a teacher. I know I can call the clinic about this but I'd rather ask you guys! Also what do they actually do to you? Our plan is to do this along with assisted hatching to hopefully get these next ones to implant. Any advice?

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Waiting is worse than actually doing treatments

Don't get me wrong....I hate taking shots. I hate the way the drugs make me cry at the silliest things. BUT at least that means we're doing something. Right now I am waiting for my next AF so I can have this endometrial biopsy done. Then I'll wait for the next AF after that to start BC. And when you have cycles that range from 35-38 days, that's a long time away. All of this is actually of my own doing. I wanted to wait until summer to do my next round so I wouldn't miss school but it sucks just sitting around. We buried my grandfather yesterday. I guess a lot of this is stimming from that. He was the only grandparent I had left Now he's gone and he'll never get to meet my children. Everytime he talked to me or my mother, he always asked how the treatments were going. Even though I didn't get to see him all the time, he still always cared what was going on with me and I wanted to give him another grandbaby so bad. So if you are in-between treatments like I am, let's wait together. Maybe we can all entertain each other while we keep waiting to become mothers.