The Infertility Addiction

My RE called last week. He said he was very sorry and really thought this transfer was going to work. I agreed and told him I had implantation spotting at 3 and 4 DP5DT so when I didn't get pregnant I was shocked. When I mentioned trying a gestational carrier he said he didn't think it was time to do that. He said GCs are for women with problems with their uterus and it was extremely expensive. He said insurance doesn't cover the pregnancy and you have to pay hospital bills out of pocket. Is this true? When I looked it up online, it seemed like insurance did cover and you just paid her co pays but who knows? Have any of you had experience with this?

He suggested to try again with our last two donor embryos and said if it didn't work he might be able to locate more for us. When does it end? Granted we've only transferred 2 high quality embryos out of 8 embryos (assuming that our genetic ones aren't good) but we've done 5 transfers with only one chemical pregnancy that ended soon after the beta. He said the success rate for FET is around 40% with high quality embryos. So I guess we will put the last two in me in a few months but I really hate to do it. I feel like my body is not good at this and I thought my time trying with my own body was over. But then again I feel like I'm playing the lottery and if I just throw some more money on the table, maybe I'll win the jackpot.

7DP5DT BFN

Well things aren't going well. I'm actually really confused about the whole thing because I had definite implantation spotting on days 3&4PT. Day 3 I had a very light cramp and later some light pink spotting. The next day I had that brown spotting just like I got on my BFP IVF 2 years ago. I've tested on days 5,6,7 (which was today) with frer fmu. Nothing. Not even a squinter. So why would I have implantation spotting but no pregnancy? I'm peeing quite frequently and got super tired yesterday. My boobs are sore but that's from the progesterone I'm sure. Seems like if this worked I would be able to pick up a little something by now. Have any of you gotten a late BFP after a 5 day transfer? In my mind I feel it's over but you always have that little bit of hope until a negative beta. Help please! My clinic doesn't do a beta until 14DPT! Craziness.