I'm excited to announce that we are officially researching adoption! I am thrilled to be closing the fertility door forever. Although I will never get over the fact that I won't be able to carry our baby, I am finally ready to become a mother in any way that God has for us. I truly feel He's leading us in this direction. Here's why-
Yesterday I had another snow day so I was at home all day. I spent the day on the computer and the phone. A friend of mine gave me the contact information for someone who had used Faithful Adoption Consultants (FAC), a website I had been looking at and contemplating using. I talked to her for over an hour and she was full of information. She said that FAC was great to work with but they were expensive and dealt with high-risk babies. She said they asked if she and her husband would be willing to travel to Utah and stay for 3 months with a baby that was born at 28 weeks. She ended up using a different consultant out of California and after 3 years of waiting and 8 failed adoptions :( she now has her precious baby girl.
Not long after this phone conversation, I received a facebook message from a friend about an agency in FL that had babies coming soon without matches to a family. It was really strange because I haven't mentioned adoption to her (or really anyone) in a long time so the fact that she sent this to me was a great sign that we were on the right track.
After getting that message, I really wanted to ask my husband if we could start the process but I was nervous. After our last FET failed I told him I was done and wanted to move on to adoption. He said if I still felt that way in a couple of months then he might actually believe me. Can you tell I've said this before and changed my mind? Well it hasn't been quite two months so I was afraid he would think it was too soon to start. I told him about my conversation with the lady who has successfully adopted and asked if we could at least start on the home study. To my surprise he said yes. Here's why-
My hubby was watching Law and Order yesterday on a plane and picked an episode at random. The episode was about a mother who was on drugs and ended up dying by gang rape and murder. She had an infant which one of the cops on the show ended up adopting at the end. Out of all of the episodes he could have chosen, he picked the one with an adoption. I do believe the Lord is working on him (and me!)
So last night and today I have been speaking with people at agencies and filling out online forms at serveral agencies/consulting firms. Do any of you have experiences with any of these places?
-Faithful Adoption Consultants (Atlanta)
-Building Families Adoption Agency (Florida)
-Miriam's Promise (Nashville)
-Catholic Christian Services (Nashville)
-Adoption Information Services(Atlanta)
-Adoption Miracles (Florida)
I would love to hear your thoughts!
Tuesday, January 27, 2015
Does anyone else think my clinic is insane waiting for this long for a beta? From what I've read, most girls have it done at 10 DPT. It really doesn't matter because I tested on Saturday which was plenty of time to see 2 lines which I course did not see. But really I'm ok now. I dealt with this last week and really feel fine. On my way to work last week I heard a song on the radio that had my actual verse at the end of it: Psalm 30:11. As you already know turning your mourning into dancing isn't a huge verse that you hear everywhere like Jeremiah 29:11, so the fact that He allowed me to hear that just when the doubt starts to creep in showed me He is still working. Please say prayers for our next steps, which I hope include adopting. I know that's not any easier than what we have already been doing but if that's the plan He has for us, it's what we both want to do too. I'll let you know the results today but we all know what they are: closure.
Monday, January 19, 2015
Actually, I believe in this instead:
On January 11, 2015 we were at church and the pastor was speaking about how sometimes the more you know, the less faith you have, kind of like how little children have such faith without question. He illustrated this by sharing a study from webmd. There were a group of women going through IVF and they were all similar in issues (such as poor egg quality, low sperm count, etc.) A group doing the study decided to pray for half of the women without their knowledge. The group that was prayed for got pregnant twice as much as the group that wasn't prayed for. The same thing happened with a group needing angioplasty surgery. The group that was prayed for had less complications than the other group. When the results of the study was presented to doctors, they said they didn't understand how this could have happened but if you ask a little child they would say because God answers prayers. It was so neat that my pastor used this story two days before my transfer. I decided to amp up the prayer time so I shared the study on my Facebook page and asked for as much prayer as possible. We also spoke with our pastor after the service and asked that he pray for us and tell as many others as he could. And believe me, people are really praying! If you are a Christian too, I would love more prayer. Here is the link if you are interested in the study:
So we left the next morning for my lining check at the Florence, Kentucky office. I was so proud of my uterus because my lining was 8mm and the doctor said anything above 6 was good.
|This is the first time they have had a pink gown. I am loving the pink and blue!!!!|
|These are my boy/girl twin socks. If I'm going to pray about a baby, I might as well go all out, right?|
|Can you see them?|
|My excited face :0|
|These rocks are in the bathroom. I am trying to do both of these!!!!!|
|Yee haw! This is in the lobby. I have to ride it every time.|
|My sweet babies! Love at first sight.|
|Their first meal, chicken salad at Rafferty's.|
|I'm on day 6 today. Going to start testing at home tomorrow!You'll see pee sticks if they look good. If not, then no.|
|Please Lord, please! We are praying for the September 9th date but October 1st will work too. :)|
My transfer was on January 13th, which is my brother's birthday. My beta is on January 27th, which is Brad's birthday. I know God loves to use numbers and dates so maybe, just maybe He will this time too. Back in 2008 when I was undergoing my first IUI, I knew without a doubt it was going to work because I was 30 years old and my IUI was in the 11th month (November) because my verse He had given to me a few years before that was Psalm 30:11. I know that is reading into it a lot, but guess what? I got pregnant and stayed pregnant longer than any other pregnancy I've had. Even though that pregnancy ended, it gave me hope that I did hear from God and He will one day indeed turn my mourning into dancing. I pray my dancing will begin tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, January 13, 2015
I will write in more detail later but just wanted to let you guys know that everything went great today. I am pupo with two donated embryos and I couldn't be happier. Beta is scheduled for January 27th (hubby's birthday!) but you know I'll start peeing on sticks next week. ;)