Is it time?

Katie had two migraines last week. When the second one wouldn't go away on Friday, she decided to call her doctor and stop by to check her blood pressure. It wasn't high but it was elevated so she sent her to Labor & Delivery for monitoring. They were trying to get her migraine to go away, get her blood pressure down and do a 24 hour urine collection to test for protein which could mean pre-eclampsia. The only cure for pre-eclampsia is to deliver the baby. Graham would be 38 weeks the following day so would be fine to deliver at this point.

I've had Graham's bags packed for some time now but not our's so I begin to frantically pack for the two of us. Would today or tomorrow be the day we would meet our son? Although I wanted to meet him more than anything in the world, I would rather it be on a day where he comes on his own or is induced. I don't want the reason he has to come be from something potentially dangerous for Katie. When you match with a surrogate and buy them life insurance, it's just routine procedure but the fact that she's literally putting her life on the line for us is not lost on me.

She get to L&D and they put her in a room and check her blood pressure periodically. Now it's normal! They gave her something safe to help with the migraine and she slowly starts to feel better and then her blood pressure is even a tad low. God is so good! They hook Graham up to a monitor and find out really soon that my son is a mover and a shaker. The nurses have to come back in constantly to readjust the monitors because he moves from side to side every few minutes! I can't wait to see his little personality. Something tells me he is going to be on the go from day 1. After a few hours of monitoring he starts to throw some contractions about every 3 minutes. The nurses are a bit concerned but Katie tells them these are nothing really and what he likes to do. The doctor came by and checked her again and although her cervix was a bit softer, she wasn't any more dilated than she was at Tuesday's check-up.

Look at these contractions! He's been doing this for weeks now. Poor Katie!

They finally let her go home around 8:30 after spending the entire day in L&D. Blood pressure was fine, headache was so much better and Graham has no intention of wanting to be born just yet. She finished the urine collection at home and there was no protein! We are so thankful to God that the one elevated reading was most likely due to the pain from the migraine and not pre-eclampsia. Looks like we will be waiting a bit longer for this boy but after 10 years what's 2 more weeks right? ;) I think Katie would say two more weeks is a LOOOOONG time though.

We are leaving for NC on Saturday. She will be 39 weeks. We are hoping he will either come on his own or for an induction the week of the 20th. Either way it won't be long now before we are holding him in our arms!

I Named You Mother

I thought I would read back through my blog, especially the older entries. The entries where it was so painful so that I could see how far God has brought us. Here's an entry from 2011 right after the first of 6 IVF failures. I don't even remember who sent this to me but I do know I needed to hear it then and even now. Thank You God for keeping Your promises. From winter to spring. From mourning to dancing:



Thursday, July 28, 2011

A word from GOD
So you know how I stayed up late Monday night searching for something from God? It turns out that He did have something to say, just not to me directly. When I got home Tuesday from Brad's grandma's where AF showed up, this was the message in my fb inbox. Keep in mind I hadn't posted about anything about the cramping or AF yet so this friend had no idea what was going on. As far as she knew I was still in my 2ww.


Hey Lyndsey,

This is kinda strange, but I was praying for you this morning and I feel like God gave me something for you. Hope you don't think its weird. And honestly, I don't know if this round of IVF will work for you. But after praying for you, and hearing what I heard, I have such hope for you. Anyway, this is it:

I have heard your cry. I have heard your cry my daughter and I am sending my spirit to you and I am filling your womb. I have anquished with you. I have heard your tears and been with you in the night. I have heard your Why’s and your heartaches and I say it is near. It is near. The time of mourning is nearing its end. And I say that before I formed you in the womb, I called you, I NAMED you “mother.” It is not just what you will be, but it is what you already are. I made you for this purpose. You have a mother’s heart. And I say, you will look back on this time of sadness and darkness and you will see very very specifically the work I was doing in your life. And you will know without a shadow of a doubt what my purposes were. And you will rejoice and thank me for this time of pain and tears. The broken road that you have traveled has opened up before you and it is a smooth passageway. There will be other trials in life, but they will be different. I have given you your mate because he is perfect for you. He was made for you. And I will ease his suffering. His pain in watching your pain will be no more. From ashes to victory. From winter into spring. From death into life. And I bring you life.



So that was my message from God. Pretty powerful, huh? It doesn't change the hurt that I feel from the failure of this cycle but it does give me hope. Hope that my mourning is close to its end. Hope that a child is on its way soon. Hope in God's plan.

Weekly Check-Ups

We are 37 weeks 3 days today and the appointments are now weekly. Katie is starting to see others that transferred around the same time we did have their babies and it's getting so real! She went to her appointment last week and even though she's had tons of contractions, she wasn't dilated at all. She went back today and was only dilated 1cm so Graham is still remaining cozy at this time. Although I hate it for her because at this point most women are SOOO ready for delivery, it's never a bad thing for him to cook a little longer. Plus that won't hurt our case for transferring two next time if she carries him completely to term.

We are planning on flying out May 19 so it would be really great if he would hold out until then so his mama and daddy can watch him be born. I'm sure when he knows we are there he will be more than ready to meet us. I know I'm sure ready to meet him. I've been ready for 10 years.