Saturday, September 13, 2014

Never going to get there

Did you ever feel like it was never going to happen? I'm sure you have. I always feel that way but tonight I really believe it. I don't even know which way to go next. Sadness is all I feel. Sorry for the pity party but it's just where I am today.

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  1. I'm do sorry you're feeling this way. Is there someone you can talk to like a therapist. I know that when I went to see a therapist it helped me feel more equipt to handle the situation. XOXO Thinking of you.

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    1. I have been to a therapist and it did help. I've just had a hard time lately because we are on a break from ttc and I hate breaks! Thanks for always being there for me.

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    2. I understand. You have been fighting for so long, Im sure it's taking a toll on you. Thinking of you, sending love!

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  2. Oh my yes, indeed I have felt this way. Of late, I've tried to muster some courage and some optimism but deep down, I wonder if I'm able to because we have put some distance between us and the journey, since we've been on a TTC break since summer 2012. My wish for you is the same it has always been: hope and for your dreams to become reality. Hang in there and know that you are not alone.

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    1. Thank you. I know you understand this pain all too well unfortunately.

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  3. sorry you are having a rough time!

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  4. I'm sorry if I'm missing some of your history, BUT, I just want to encourage you to continue as long as that is what you want to do. We were in treatment 8 years... many IUIs, 7 IVFs with my own eggs. Then we transferred 2 high quality donated embryos that resulted in a chemical pregnancy. I figured, what's the point? It must be my uterus. We then transferred a fair quality donated embryo, and after a total of 12 years of TTC, we have our baby. It's amazing, hard to believe and a miracle quite frankly. Just be encouraged that it CAN still happen.

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    1. That certainly does make me feel better. We've been in this dreadful journey for almost 8 years: 15 IUIs, 5 IVFs with 2 chemicals and 1 miscarriage after hearing the heartbeat. The last cycle we did was with donor embryos and BFN but we still have 2 left. Still trying to decide what to do next but your story gives me lots of hope that it could work. Thank you and congratulations on your miracle baby!

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