Baby, baby, baby

Triplets! There's a mother that's pregnant with three babies and she already has three kids. Can you believe someone would get pregnant with triplets accidentally? So strange in the world I live in. She can't afford to raise three more so she's looking for a family. She's due in Dec and wants the adoptive parents to be at the hospital when she has them. When I underwent IVF, I always dreamed that we'd get multiples. Yes I realize the risk involved but I just wanted them for some reason. Maybe to make up for the two we lost? Now here they are and it's really hard to say no. The reason she's having trouble finding someone to take them is because she wants them to stay together. There's not too many people that would take three newborns. She also doesn't want to go through an agency and wants a closed adoption. That's exactly what we wanted should we eventually adopt. Ughhhh! I really want to do another round of IVF but I really want these babies. I am praying God will scream an answer at us. Is He right now? Do we keep getting these calls because adoption is what He has for us? Or am I'm just being impatient, wanting to take them because I'm tired of waiting on what He has for us? Please pray that we will get a clear answer from Him either way.

Things are looking up!

Two pieces of good news to report for once! First of all my stomach has finally went back to normal (mostly) so I don't look three months pregnant anymore. I am so thankful for this. There's nothing worse than looking pregnant without a baby inside of you. Secondly, my kids at school are super good this year. I had such a difficult year last year and it was very stressful to miss school so much for all of my treatments. Now that my class is good, I will feel confident taking off in October to transfer my little frozen baby. I feel ok for the first time in weeks.

Congratulations

I started back to school this week so I wanted Brad to take me out to eat Friday night to celebrate the week's end. With this pretend pregnant belly still visible, it's hard to find the right clothes to fit without looking preggo. I wore this black dress that had plenty of room, so I thought.

When we finished eating, I was waiting for Brad to get out of the bathroom so we could leave. I noticed some crumbs on my dress so I was brushing them off. These crumbs happened to be on my stomach and a waitress walked by as I was doing this and said, "Congratulations!" I said, "No, I'm not. I just look like I am." She of course apologized and then I explained that we did IVF and it didn't work and that was why I looked pregnant. Then she asked how old I was and when I told her I was 33 she was like, "Oh! I thought you were around my age." I assume she's much younger than me and was going to say at least you're still young. I'm glad she didn't say that. It would've poured even more salt into my wound. GO AWAY PREGNANT BELLY THAT HAS NO BABY!!!!!!!!

Inflated

So have any of the rest of you post IVF girls had trouble with a pregnant looking stomach? It's been 23 days since my retrieval and I'm still really bloated. If I had gotten pregnant I would love this belly but since it didn't work it's a constant reminder of what I don't have. Plus I am a a teacher and we are getting ready to return to school. Won't it be fun when people ask me if I'm pregnant and I'll have to reply,"No,I'm just fat now."