National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Day

October 15th again. I love this day but I hate this day. I love it because our babies deserve this. They deserve one day to be thought of by others so that it is not so taboo that we miss babies that we never even met. I hate this day because it's another year gone by in which my infertility is unresolved. It really has nothing to do with the day itself. It's because it's an anniversary of something I guess.

I am thankful that this year I am still lighting only 3 candles for myself. I haven't endured any more losses since 2012 so that is a definite positive. So tonight I say a prayer for all of you who are just beginning your journey all the way to those of you who do have your infertility resolved. Even if you've never physically lost a baby, in some way you do if you never get one of your own. I pray we all get that resolution we deserve one day, whether it be through pregnancy, gestational carrier or adoption.

Grant, Caleb and Allyson.....We love and miss all three of you. We know you are well taken care of, you've never known sorrow or pain and Jesus is your best friend. Any parent would love that kind of life for their children. I guess we are really the lucky ones!